Wednesday, March 4, 2015

Ultrasound #2

Well, with ultrasound #2 came a second surprised.  Not one, but two heartbeats!!!  Baby A was a strong 147 and Baby B was 136.  Both measured 7w1d.  I'm nervous about having 3 kiddos under 2, but also just so lucky.  I was so terrified I'd lost the pregnancy.  My next ultrasound is in two weeks.

Sunday, March 1, 2015

The Hook Effect

A few people made comments yesterday, including one on my blog, about the higher your hcg goes the lighter your tests become.  That you need to dilute your urine with 50% water and then test and you'll see a darker line.  Well, I tried it and it seems to be true, which has calmed me down a bit.

The first test is my urine without dilution and the second test is urine with dilution.  You can read more here:

I'm still nervous, but feeling a bit better and clearly no more poas.  I've just been very upset and scared since Wed.  I want this baby so bad.  I want everything to be okay.  I want to see a heartbeat.  I have seen some posts where people had what I had at my u/s and then a week later there was a heartbeat and everything was fine.  I just hope that's me.  I guess it would be easier if I didn't keep comparing everything to my first pregnancy.  I do know that things don't vary very much at first.

Thank you everyone who's been supporting me and encouraging me throughout all of this.

Saturday, February 28, 2015

Pretty sure it's over

I'm sorry I haven't been great about commenting on everyone's blogs lately.  I promise I'll catch up soon.

I've been poas since Wed, since I've had a bad feeling and well, it doesn't look good.  I'll keep testing, but I don't see how the line would be any kind of lighter at the point where my HCG should be now.

Wednesday, February 25, 2015

Ultrasound #1

I hope today was only the first of many ultrasounds, but I'm not currently feeling optimistic.  I'll have one more next week and then I'll know where this pregnancy is headed-or not.

I'm 6 weeks 1 day today.  My first ultrasound with Katie was 6 weeks 0 days and I saw a sac, a baby, and a heartbeat.  Couldn't hear the heartbeat, but saw it.  That was Katie.

Today I saw 2 sacs.  One was bigger and empty.  No flutter, nothing that looked like a baby.  Just a ball. The second sac, much smaller and couldn't really see in it.  The nurse said the second sac could be anything from a vanishing twin, to fluid, to maybe a twin that is just early.  No way to know.  The first sac the nurse thinks is just early.

I'm concerned because my BFP was 9 dpiui.  Not that early.  There's a lot online about it still being okay.  I don't know.  I'll know for sure next week.  Hoping, praying, but it's out of my hands.

Thursday, February 12, 2015

Beta #2

This beta almost tripled.  15 dpiui and beta was 686.  My first ultrasound is in 2 weeks on 2/25.

Monday, February 9, 2015

Beta #1

I got my first beta in and it's 239!!  I'm 13 dpiui today.  I was 13 dpiui with Katie's first beta too and that was 114.  My next beta is Wed and then u/s is in two weeks.  I still can't believe I'm really pregnant.

Saturday, February 7, 2015

TTC #2, Medicated IUI cycle #1

It's been a rough week, but it ends well.  At 9 dpiui I saw the line get darker and officially had my BFP.  This morning FRER and digi confirms it.  Beta is Monday.  I can't believe it.  Like, really can't. I had issues come up in this cycle I had cramping post O, which I didn't the first time.  Right now I'm pretty sick.  Like sneezy, slimy, sore throat, bad cold kind of sick, so sipping on my peppermint tea with EOs and hoping I feel better soon.

I really, really appreciate all the support, and of course, as any IFer knows, a BFP is the end of TTC, but the start of pregnancy and loss fears.  I know my history makes this round look very positive and I hope so.