Saturday, April 18, 2015

The Announcement

On Thursday, April 16, 2015, my husband and I celebrated ten wonderful years of marriage.  Yes, I can't believe we've been married for 10 years!!  And now with a toddler and twins on the way, I honestly feel like our marriage is just beginning and I can't wait for the ride.

With that in mind, I went ahead and did the official Facebook announcement.  I am in my 13th week now and considered "safe", although c'mon, we all know there is no safe. It seemed like a good day.

You would never know that my daughter was fussing and screaming during almost all the photos.  The photographer got the red out of the one we chose to post.  You'd never know that I'm as terrified as I am excited.  That I'm scared of so much going wrong and in my dreams at night I picture 2 lb NICU babies.  I'm currently trying to find a new OB because I'm not feeling it the second round with my current one.  But today everything is fine.  Today I'm pregnant, they are both doing well, my daughter is incredible and amazing in every way, and there's no one I'd rather share this journey with than the man by my side.

Tuesday, March 31, 2015

11 weeks

I'm exactly 11 weeks today.  I had my last RE appointment and it was so bittersweet.  I'm glad I'm done with the RE, and assuming this pregnancy continues to go well, which I do, I'm done forever. This is the man who gave me hope when I didn't have it.  This is my  man who brought me 3 children when I never thought I'd have one.  He's the one person who's brought me hope since the first moment I stepped into his office.  I recommend him and his practice to everyone I know.  I was practically in tears when I left.

However, I'm excited to move forward.  I meet with my OB on Friday.  He did an amazing job with Katie and I know he will with the twins too or find someone for me who can.

Both babies are doing amazing!  I'll start the blog with Big Sister Katie.  She needs to be shown off too.  Katie is now 15 months old.  She is smart, beautiful, and sweet.  She LOVES animals.  She saying more words, loves to dance, and loves books.  She's so much fun and she's an adventure girl.  She is my heart and my soul.

Now, for the twins.  Baby A is measuring 11w4d with a nice heartbeat of 178.

Baby B is measuring 11w2d with a strong heartbeat of 187.

To say I feel lucky is an understatement.  I can't believe how all of this has turned out and while I know twins are risky and anything can happen.  I'm trying to stay hopeful that it's going to go well and they will be okay.

Wednesday, March 4, 2015

Ultrasound #2

Well, with ultrasound #2 came a second surprised.  Not one, but two heartbeats!!!  Baby A was a strong 147 and Baby B was 136.  Both measured 7w1d.  I'm nervous about having 3 kiddos under 2, but also just so lucky.  I was so terrified I'd lost the pregnancy.  My next ultrasound is in two weeks.

Sunday, March 1, 2015

The Hook Effect

A few people made comments yesterday, including one on my blog, about the higher your hcg goes the lighter your tests become.  That you need to dilute your urine with 50% water and then test and you'll see a darker line.  Well, I tried it and it seems to be true, which has calmed me down a bit.

The first test is my urine without dilution and the second test is urine with dilution.  You can read more here:

I'm still nervous, but feeling a bit better and clearly no more poas.  I've just been very upset and scared since Wed.  I want this baby so bad.  I want everything to be okay.  I want to see a heartbeat.  I have seen some posts where people had what I had at my u/s and then a week later there was a heartbeat and everything was fine.  I just hope that's me.  I guess it would be easier if I didn't keep comparing everything to my first pregnancy.  I do know that things don't vary very much at first.

Thank you everyone who's been supporting me and encouraging me throughout all of this.

Saturday, February 28, 2015

Pretty sure it's over

I'm sorry I haven't been great about commenting on everyone's blogs lately.  I promise I'll catch up soon.

I've been poas since Wed, since I've had a bad feeling and well, it doesn't look good.  I'll keep testing, but I don't see how the line would be any kind of lighter at the point where my HCG should be now.

Wednesday, February 25, 2015

Ultrasound #1

I hope today was only the first of many ultrasounds, but I'm not currently feeling optimistic.  I'll have one more next week and then I'll know where this pregnancy is headed-or not.

I'm 6 weeks 1 day today.  My first ultrasound with Katie was 6 weeks 0 days and I saw a sac, a baby, and a heartbeat.  Couldn't hear the heartbeat, but saw it.  That was Katie.

Today I saw 2 sacs.  One was bigger and empty.  No flutter, nothing that looked like a baby.  Just a ball. The second sac, much smaller and couldn't really see in it.  The nurse said the second sac could be anything from a vanishing twin, to fluid, to maybe a twin that is just early.  No way to know.  The first sac the nurse thinks is just early.

I'm concerned because my BFP was 9 dpiui.  Not that early.  There's a lot online about it still being okay.  I don't know.  I'll know for sure next week.  Hoping, praying, but it's out of my hands.

Thursday, February 12, 2015

Beta #2

This beta almost tripled.  15 dpiui and beta was 686.  My first ultrasound is in 2 weeks on 2/25.