So, here I am, CD 1 of cycle 22 of ATTC. I am actually okay. I know I had a pretty hard week, but I just had a realization this morning and a new attitude that I am going to pray remains with me for the rest of the year so that I can get through it and stay positive.
I am not going to conceive naturally. My body simply can't. Now, I am not going to discount acu, the herbs, and everything else I've done for my body. My cycles have changed so much since starting acupuncture. I used to ovulate very early in my cycle and now I ovulate mid-cycle. My cycles used to also be about 3 weeks long and now they are about 25 days. This past cycle with the progesterone and a few other changes, my LP was 12 days instead of the 10 or 11 it had been. My progesterone has increased and my estrogen has decreased to normal range. My other labwork has been really good since acupuncture as well. However, I am not pregnant and I'm accepting the fact that for me, it's not going to happen naturally.
I plan to spend the rest of 2012 continuing to improve my body. I am going to continue with the acupuncture, the herbs, and the supplements. Unfortunately my insurance does not cover any fertility treatments at all, and as anyone who TTC knows, fertility treatments can be quite expensive. This means that in the new year I cannot afford to continue doing acupuncture AND see the RE, so I am going to say goodbye to acu once I start with treatments. I am looking at the rest of the year as finishing getting my body ready and hopefully it won't take as many drugs or as long with the drugs to get the BFP. Hoping I have a good response to the medical treatment as well. Once I do conceive and I am only seeing the RE to monitor the first trimester, I can see acu again to make sure I keep the pregnancy.
I will be forever grateful for all that acu has done for my body. I am praying that I can keep the outlook I have today for the rest of the year, even when cycle 23 begins. I'll see the RE for the first time around the end of the 23rd cycle and be ready to start cycle 24 with him.