In the end it's what I always knew it would be. I don't know why I thought I would be special or different, but I did. I didn't honestly think I'd be sitting here one year after my diagnosis still waiting and praying for this baby, but I am.
I had my consult today and even though I toyed around with the idea of injectibles, at the end I knew I'd be facing IVF. The RE broke it down to me like this:
To keep trying naturally = 1-3% chance
Injectibles + TI (timed intercourse) = 7%
Injectibles + IUI = 20% chance
IVF = 70% chance
He based most of this on my age and he doesn't see DOR as the huge problem. He said since all my labs come up normal, he actually considers me DOR/Unexplained. Of course, IVF is under 12k for the procedure and then 17k with the meds, though I plan to try and get donated meds if I can. I have zero insurance coverage, so starting int he new year it's save, save, save. We will pinch pennies, I will push my Scentsy, DH is going to look for a better paying job, and I plan on searching grants and scholarships and maybe we could do this this year, maybe even by summer, but we'll see....
DH and I considered our five options very carefully:
1. Live child free
2. Continue trying naturally
We decided that living child free was not an option, so we crossed those off. We also decided that continuing to try naturally was the same as choosing to live child free, so that option is not available either. For the cost and the chance injectibles and IUI doesn't make much sense. I would actually try a round if I had any coverage for it, but since I don't, I mean a few of those is one IVF cycle. So that leaves us with IVF and adoption. We really want one child that is biologically ours, so for now we are looking at one IVF cycle. If it doesn't pan out and there are no leftover embroys to do a FET (with DOR it is highly unlikely I'll have anything to freeze), then we will pursue adoption.
Until we can afford our next step, the road has ended. No more acu as I need all that money, considering continuing with some of the supp's like the CoQ10 and inosotil for egg quality since that can help with IVF, but I can get those online.
I am sad, but I accept where I am. I pray I can save up the money for this procedure. My main concern is affording it and then it working. DH is only concerned about the leftover embryos. I tried explaining that my world is diff, there's not going to be any left over most likely. He's picturing twins and tons of eggs in storage. I told him no, I'm lucky to get one baby out of all of this. By definition of what's wrong I won't have any left over, maybe, just maybe one or two, but that's a very unlikely scenario. In any event, we did agree that we would see all embryos through, meaning we would do FET's in the future (my RE will only do two at a time) and give them all a chance. We could never destroy them our donate them, so that is our choice.
I also realized that right now the earliest I'll be a mom is when I'm 33 because I can't save up that kind of money by March. Of course, I am aware that miracles happen everyday and I know I "could" conceive naturally, but it isn't very likely and I'd rather save and find out I don't need it, then not save and have no options.