Here is the post I never thought I was going to make. Instead I thought tonight I would be posting about how I am now in the second trimester and feeling more "relaxed", although today I mostly just felt sick. Instead I received a call from my nurse telling me that my NT Scan came back with an elevated risk for Down's Syndrome. My baby has 1:61 chance of having Down's instead of the 1:400+ chance that's typical of someone my age (32).
I have to do more blood work to check more closely and also meet with a specialist to do a more detailed ultrasound in order to know if my baby is okay. Part of me is terrified. I was too lucky. My 3rd RE was just perfect, conceived on my first treatment with him, had minimal to no first tri symptoms, and here I am. Something had to go wrong and this is it. The other part of me says 1:61 is still not a diagnosis and doesn't mean anything, the baby is probably just fine. I don't know. I love my baby no matter what, but I am scared.
I could use some thoughts and prayers at this time. I feel selfish when most of the women following this blog are still waiting for their BFP, but I am asking anyways. I don't know when the follow-up tests will be yet because they are processing through insurance, but hopefully in the next few days I'll have an update.