Wednesday, September 17, 2014

9 months old....

I woke up yesterday the mother of a 9 month old.  I looked at this beautiful, gorgeous girl in awe.  How is it possible she's really 9 months?  How is it possible I ever went a day of my life without her?  Love doesn't even begin to describe how much she means to me.  She is amazing and wonderful in every way that I can imagine.  She can now sit on her own, crawl, pull-up, and she's walking with her walker.  I know soon she'll try to stand independently and soon take those first few steps.  She is absolutely gorgeous and has the most amazing personality.  She's really funny and I can tell she's going to have a great sense of humor like her dad.  She's pretty independent, which means I don't get as many cuddles with her, but at the same time she can do independent play.

Motherhood is more than I could ever dream and even on the hard days and the long nights, I thank my lucky stars she is mine.

Here's her her progression pics all together of the past 9 months.  She's gone from fitting in preemie clothes to wearing 24 month clothes.  She was born 6 lbs. 11 oz, 17.75" long.  For height she was only in the 2nd percentile and for weight she was 20th percentile.  Now?  She's 29" long and 23 lbs. 13 oz.  This puts her in the 93rd percentile for height and 98th percentile for weight.  Has she ever grown! Each one of these pics shows a little piece of her personality.

I know there hasn't been any update from me all summer.  I was hoping to update that my husband has found the job.  Unfortunately, that is not the case.  4 months later, my husband remains unemployed.  He has another interview tomorrow, so maybe that will change soon.  We've had to almost sell our house, but there was a glitch with the health insurance and basically we don't have any (just an emergency plan to cover Katie), but it allows my income to pay the mortgage for now.  Really hope he is hired by the end of 2014 or else tough decisions are ahead of us.

So, TTC.  I'm currently at the tail end of cycle 8, and cycle 9 should be starting anywhere Friday through the weekend.  I've given up in my heart that I'm going to get a natural BFP.  It doesn't stop me from timing things right, but my heart doesn't break when AF shows.  I just surrender to it.  Not because I have Katie and it doesn't matter anymore, but because I've just accepted that until I can do some kind of treatment, the chances of conception are extremely low.  I'd give more than anything to give this girl a sibling and I hope this is in her future.

Well, this is pretty much the update I have for now.  Hoping to update soon with happier news regarding the job situation.