I have so many emotions right now. I think more and more they're coming out. I'm close to snapping for sure. My tolerance is zilch right now for pretty much everything. I feel guilt, anger, sadness, depression, bitterness, and lots of ugly on the inside.
DH and I just hugged each other and cried and cried. I seriously don't see how life is ever going to be okay again. I'm dreading the counselling appt tomorrow.
Here are the remains of each baby.
This is the shelf I'm working on. I want a table runner and then a frame pictures of each baby and also the piece of paper that explains what the bears are. The bears displayed are made in size an weight to Emma and Chase, so I can hold them even though I can't hold my babies and remember them.
Here's me on Monday holding the bears after I got them. My friend Mary Ann made them for me.
Here's the papers that are lying on the shelf that I want framed. I also want a picture of each baby on the shelf.
Emma and Chase, I miss you so, so much. I love you with every fiber of my being and I'm so sorry for what I did to you. Rest in peace my beautiful, precious angels.