Today, I was mostly okay. I started the morning by taking Kate to the park to run around. After nap a friend stopped by to visit and bring dinner. Then I took Kate to run around open gym while I signed us up for mommy and me gymnastics starting this Wed. Came home and enjoyed the dinner and played with Katie. David (DH) did bath time and then I do bedtime.
As Kate wrapped her arms around my neck I sang her You Are My Sunshine and Soft Kitty. As tears rolled down my face I realized I would never hold Emma and Chase, never sing to them, and never sign them up for anything. I miss and love them so much. Why did this happen?