Physically-Nothing seems to be happening at all. I've had some minor cramping, a little bit of spotting, none of it bright red. I was asked if I was spotting or bleeding at my ultrasound, because she could see some blood. I wasn't at the time and even now, I'm talking not much at all. Nothing like at the beginning of the pregnancy. I still feel nauseous. I actually took a med this morning because it hit me bad during the night. I can't see them telling me this isn't viable and Ivy is okay, but this isn't making much sense either. No one is perfect and there is a very small part of me, and maybe its just desperation, but is it possible they were wrong? That Ivy is just a bit behind schedule, but okay? It's still so early and the twins were slightly off at first too. I had smaller betas than before, that weird bleeding at the beginning, I just wonder if maybe everything is fine, Ivy is just a bit behind than my others were. I might give a call tomorrow and see if my RE himself will do the ultrasound, rather than the nurse practitioner. I just don't know anymore. I also feel like I'm probably being stupid and trying to cling to any false hope. I just don't know.
At the same time, I KNOW babies don't measure almost a week behind and turn out okay. That isn't possible, right? When the twins measured off at the 6 week appt though, I was told it was most likely okay, it was early. They didn't say that this time. I didn't ask the amount of questions I normally would because I was in shock. I just don't know. I want this to be over, preferably with my REs office having made the mistake. I want to keep Ivy. I want Ivy to come home with me. But either way, this second guessing it making a hard situation even harder. I don't know anymore and at the same time I feel like a stupid idiot who wants this baby so bad, she's ignoring logic and truth.