I'm just so incredibly scared. What am I doing? Is this right? I want to run and hide. I feel like I'm either going to get a BFN or multiples. I'm not trying to replace the children I lost, they aren't with me and I'll forever love and miss them. I just wanted to raise more than one and have Katie grow up with a sibling. I know the "consequence" or "side effect" of these treatments is the possibility of multiples. I also know the whole thing could just not work out. I know even a BFP doesn't mean I'll bring home a living child(ren).
I'm second guessing myself. Should I have walked away and not done this last chance? I'm scared, so scared. I just wanted more than one child at home. Was that wrong? Am I making a mistake?