Mary measured 11w4d today and had a strong heartbeat of 170.
For the past week I've had extreme anxiety and I even woke up in the motn last night in a panic over this appointment and some contract work I'm doing. I'm feeling so much better and I'm glad I have therapy tonight. I think the whole illness thing really kicked me into PTSD and I want to talk about that because illness happens.
Thank to everyone who's been supportive and nice and understanding that this is a scary pregnancy for me, but I'm doing the best I can day by day. I've come a long way from where I once was and healing is a process. Your comments and support have meant the world to me.
Now a small update on my oldest daughter. She's doing okay. She's definitely traumatized from the barium enema and the hospital wanted to do another, even worse test on her. I don't know if she needs all that, so right now I'm going to bump that test into later in the year and get a second opinion from a diff GI on 10/27. This also gives time to see how she's doing. Hopefully she'll be doing okay and it was just major constipation that really needed to get cleaned out.