Thursday, March 30, 2017

Meet Miss Anna Belle

Without further adieu, I'd like to introduce the beloved, enchanted, sweet, and amazing Anna Belle!

Miss Anna Belle came rocking into our world on Monday, March 27th, 2017 at 6:12 am.  She is a tiny, but mighty 6 lbs. 4 oz and 19 inches long. 

The Birth Story

As you know, on Friday it was obvious some early labor had started. Over the weekend I had off/on contractions, cramping, and losing mucus plug here and there with a bit of spotting.  Nothing too exciting in my opinion and my only goal was to complete the nursery.  I got most of it done, I have a few touches before I post the pictures, but the important things were done and boy it looks good.

Not sure if I've mentioned here, but my tooth has been having a lot of issues. It's on the right side of my mouth and Sunday it was excruciating.  I even called the on-call OB who told me since it was the weekend there was nothing he could do for me. He had to personally write a script for any heavier pain med and there's no emergency dentist I could see. It was a miserable day physically. 

Sunday night I'm lying in bed trying to go to sleep.  I'd taken diclegis and was just praying for it to kick in.  As I'm lying there my water breaks, I'm like crap! I call hubby because he's upstairs and this even had blood on it, so I was kind of freaking out and ripping sheets off the bed, etc. Hubby is running around like crazy trying to gather things and I'm calling my mom to come stay with Katie.  I finally get to the hospital and checked in and I'm 5 cm and 80% effaced. Things just flew from then.  I got the epidural and even a norco for my mouth.  I had an amazing nurse and my sister, who's an RN, came to help and be there for support. 

My OB wasn't available and they were trying to stall labor as much as possible so he could make it.  He was doing a surgery and I needed to make it to 7:00 am.  Even with everything, Anna was like nope, ready or not, here I come! Also what was scary was around 5:00 am I started having issues. Every time I had a contraction, Anna's heartbeat went down. It was very scary as the nurse was moving me around to try and figure out what was happening and why.  I was lying there crying and praying that she please, please be born okay. 

They were considering just taking me in for  c-section, when the nurse wanted to check me and I was completely effaced and crowning. It was like whoa! And wondering how long I'd even been like that. More stalling as they are trying to get the on-call OB to come in to deliver. Finally, at 6:12 am, Anna made her debut into this world. Her cord was wrapped around her neck 3 times! This is why the heartbeat issues, it was essentially a noose.  I shutter at what could happen, but I'm just glad she's okay. Her apgars were 8 and 9. She was cold and needed to be warmed up, but otherwise no issues. No NICU, no nothing. In fact, she was born Monday and we were released on Tuesday evening.

Due to her small size her home outfit was drowning her, but seriously is she not the cutest?

Since Katie has some issues with medical stuff, plus I was having some of my own anxieties we chose to wait until we were home to introduce the sisters. I got home Tuesday after Katie was in bed, and so the girls met yesterday when Katie came home from Mother's Day Out.

We have some adjustments to do as Katie is learning she's not the baby anymore, but she loves her sister.

We're doing newborn pics on Saturday and right now it's just nursing  and trying to settle in. Anna is just the sweetest, calmest, and most awesome baby. We're so in love with her!

To everyone who's been there and continues to be there, thank you! I hope you're in love with Anna Belle as much as we are.

Friday, March 24, 2017

38 weeks, plus maternity pics

So, somehow I find myself at 38 weeks and still in denial that I'm actually going to have a baby. My body is telling me it's happening soon though.  For the last 48 hours I've had a very hard time eating any kind of food without my stomach feeling like it's being ripped out and I live in the bathroom. Everything pretty much hurts.

Had my OB appointment today and he could feel her head and sac of water. Also, I'm 50% effaced and dilated to 4 cm.  Guess I better pack that hospital bag and get my butt going on having things as ready as possible.

This past week has been hard, I've been struggling a lot with PTSD as the realization that I have to go to that hospital has been hitting me. I could use all the thoughts and prayers and hopefully everything goes smoothly.

My maternity pics came back.  Katie wasn't exactly cooperative during the shoot so I was a bit frustrated that day.  However, the photographer found a way to include Emma, Chase, and Ivy in them and it just made my heart smile and knowing that my babies really are with me always.  Sharing a few of my favorites here.

I love this one of Anna and I. It just feels very special.

One of the whole family where Katie is actually facing the camera and smiling (#threenagers)

I love this last one the best. These just really made my heart.

I guess we'll see if there will be a 39 week update or a baby instead.  I'll try to keep this updated.  Thank you all so much for all your love and support throughout the whole journey. Looks like I'm on the verge of a new chapter. Can't wait to meet and hold the long awaited and precious Anna Belle.

Friday, March 17, 2017

37 week appointment

I saw my MFM yesterday for my final appointment with her.  Anna Belle is as healthy as can be and her organs, fluid, etc all look fantastic.  However, she is most likely going to be a small baby, similar to her siblings.  I've started wondering if the fact that I have hypoglycemia contributes to smaller babies in the same way that women who get gestational diabetes tend to have bigger babies, but who knows.  Katie was born in the 4th percentile for her size (6 lbs, 11 oz. and 17.75" long at 39w6d), but her apgars were 9 and 9 and she was a very healthy baby (aside from reflux and GI issues as I've come to learn). Anna is bigger on the OB machines, but the MFM machines are better.  Her estimated weight yesterday was 6 lbs. 0z. She measured an overall 35w2d and in the 23rd percentile.

We talked about the fact that since about 16 weeks I've had the Braxton Hicks and that it's increased in intensity and frequency throughout the pregnancy.  I'm not going to lie, I hurt almost all the time these days. I assume most do, considering I'm early term. She said she recommends an induction at 39 weeks and would send a note to my OB, this puts me at the tail end of March.

Okay, induction.  I'm going to admit I'm torn. Part of me wants to let nature handle it.  Actually, most of me does.  It's not like going into labor has been a prior concern on my part, more like making sure it happens late enough. With this much BH I do wonder when I'd actually know I was in labor, but that's a diff story. I've never known when I was in labor.  I went to the hospital with PTL with Katie ONLY because coworkers were bugging the crap out of me because I was too uncomfortable to sit and was walking around and then my back was kinda sore too.  I'd also had nonstop BH so none of that had me running anywhere at that point. It was a good thing I did listen to them since I was completely thinned out and 4 cm at that point (33 weeks). Then I went to actually deliver her after my water broke. With the twins, I had no idea I'd be delivering them.  I had a fever and the BH seemed extra bad, since I was getting ready for the gender reveal I thought I better get checked out "in case" and well....  So, I dunno what to expect this time around. Of course I may not even make it to 39 weeks and then all of this is pointless.

So, why induce?  Frankly, I could care less about the pain.  Yes, it sucks. I don't want to do anything too early and possibly hurt this precious girl because I can't tough it out for another few days/week.  My concern is I'm terrified to enter that hospital and deliver. Like I freak out just imagining going in there.  I imagine it might be worse if I'm in heavy labor, my water is broken, and basically my sense of panic is heightened. Is that a good enough reason though?  I don't know.  I just honestly don't know. DH and I did agree that if there's no medical necessity, it def needs to be April and probably after the 40 week appt just to make sure she really is okay. I know with fertility treatments the margin of error is less, it's not like I'm guessing on when I conceived, but at the same time that first u/s had my edd closer to 4/10 and then the 4/6 date was based off IUI. I do agree with my OB that I shouldn't go beyond 41 weeks.

So, much to think about if I make it to my next appt with him on 3/24 and he'll also check to see how much progress I've made at that time. It's suddenly becoming quite real.

Nursery is coming along and once it's finished or near finished I will share pictures of it.

For now, it's the day I've been waiting for, BEAUTY AND THE BEAST!!!!!

Tuesday, March 14, 2017

36 weeks

Sorry I've been so quiet.  I've been having some ups and down's, had my shower, and now I'm wondering how am I pretty much term and scrambling to get ready for my precious Anna Belle.

A recap of how things have been going. I had a wonderful shower thrown by my MIL and much love and support from so many friends.  It was a beautiful shower and I'm grateful my MIL did this for me.  Here's a few pics.  This was at 33 weeks.

At 34 weeks, I had a growth scan that scared me.  She'd only gained 3 oz in two weeks and went from the 47th percentile to the 13th.  My MFM wasn't worried, but I just keep waiting for the other shoe to drop so I was in freak out mode.  I also had a lot of anxiety about setting up the nursery, because even though I know in my head she's probably going to be okay and things will be fine, I'm terrified that something will and I have trouble picturing her or really believing in my heart I'll get to bring her home. Also, just had a lot of anxiety in general about setting up the nursery.  I had it pictures for the twins during the pregnancy, all the way for wall color to decorations to everything and it my mind and heart it remained "their room" and just a lot of guilt.

However, my mom helped me with samples and we finally picked out wall colors (a gorgeous sky blue with a yellow accent wall) and my mom even found beautiful butterfly fabric to make curtains, blanket and some other decorations. The walls were painted this past weekend and my anxiety is starting to go away.  I see the room as Anna's room now.  I have an idea of how to place the furniture and getting it decorated and I'm starting to get excited and hopeful, although I still deal with anxiety.

I'll share nursery photos when it's done, hoping to get the bulk of it done this week so hoping to show off pics by 38 weeks.

My 36 week check went perfect!!  She's back around the 50th percentile and she's at 6 lbs. 6 oz as of last Friday. Her lungs and everything look great. She's moving up a storm and I'm sore as anything, lol. I'm starting to thin out and dilated a finger tip. I have my last appt with MFM this Thursday and then weekly with OB until delivery. I also had my last progesterone shot last Friday. The BH are pretty intense, but not much can be done about that. Physically I don't feel great, but I'm so glad to be this far along, still carrying her, and that everything is going well.  I'm confident I'll make it to April.

Today I'm doing maternity pics and working on nursery stuff and thank you cards from my shower. I'll share those too when I get my pics back.  It's all suddenly happening fast.  I'm terrified of going to that hospital for delivery and hope I can go when it's time.

Thank you everyone who's praying for us, thinking about us, and continuing to support me  and for always remembering all my children.